It's three in the morning, and I'm alone in my apartment. I look at my phone, then at the ceiling, then back at my phone. I do nothing. I don't even want to touch it. I just experienced a total liquidation with a 20x position. Two thousand euros. Everything I had left.

This is the feeling I carry with me when I think about losing everything in trading. It’s not the moment when the account hits zero—it’s before. It’s when you see the money decrease and you can do nothing. That paralysis.

But how did I get here? I was an ordinary person. Not a trader, not a programmer, nothing special. A friend told me: "Put in 10,000 and watch, this stuff is rising quickly now." I hesitated, but I decided to try. In less than a week, 10,000 became 16,000. Heart pounding, excitement that keeps you awake. I thought making money was that easy.

From that moment, I started studying on my own. KOL videos, Telegram groups, paid courses, VIP signal channels. I thought I was becoming a sophisticated investor. In reality, I was just paying tuition to learn how to lose.

The real descent began when I invested in a project that the KOLs said was "the next 10x." I believed it and put almost all my money into the account. The price dropped 20%, then 50%, then 80%. And I kept telling myself: "It’s just a correction," "It’s fallen so much now it has to bounce back," "It’s a long-term investment." But it didn’t bounce. It kept falling.

What’s worse? I didn’t stop there. Every month I invested more, increased my position on every small rebound, impulsively bought when I saw "positive news." In crypto, news are always exaggerated, full of hope—but you never know who’s behind the scenes spreading them.

I lost in junk cryptocurrencies with AI as bait, in projects that got "likes" from famous figures before issuance, in GameFi projects that ran away. And then leveraged contracts. I didn’t understand how they worked, but I used them anyway. One night, I opened a long position at 20x, watching the price spike up. Ten minutes later, total liquidation. That’s how I lost everything in trading, literally everything I had left.

Did I regret it? Of course. For being greedy, for listening to influencers, for entering a field I didn’t understand. But the real regret was not accepting the losses. I wanted to recover them at all costs, so I kept increasing my positions, and I sank even deeper. It’s like gambling: you lose once and don’t run away, hoping to win next time. In crypto, 99% of investors don’t have this fate.

Now I only have Twitter and my thoughts. Over €300,000—years’ savings, my hopes for the future. All gone. I no longer have capital to trade. My life now is scrolling Twitter, watching the markets, complaining a little.

I don’t know if I’ll recover, but I know I can’t keep falling into illusions. I want to write this because I hope someone won’t follow my path, that someone will realize they’re not alone in being scammed, that someone can start over like I’m trying to do.

The lessons I’ve learned: KOLs are not friends, they’re traffic and commissions. When you see the price explode, someone else is already selling. Never trade trying to recover losses— it will lead you to make the worst decisions. In crypto, there’s no easy gain, only scripts created by those who really know how it works. And most importantly: you may not understand anything, but you cannot lose control of risk.

I am an ordinary person who lost €300,000, but I still want to get back up.